Around this time last night I was pulling back up to our house after spending several hours in the E.R. with Eliana. I was almost in tears, so grateful that I was returning home with a little girl who was just fine, rather than something much worse.
We had gone to the Arlingtion Convention Center earlier that afternoon, in order to participate in the Rangers FanFest. We had such a great time, and even though we weren't able to meet or get autographs from any of the Rangers that play on the team right now, we had some one-of-a-kind experiences with former Rangers, and the kids were able to participate in some energy-expending activities.
As the end of the FanFest drew near, I headed to the store area in order to look at the t-shirts, for which I had a coupon, from the flyer that they handed out when we arrived. The three kids were kind of running around in this large empty-ish area just next to the roped-off store. Well, really it was the two crazies that were running around...Michaela was more likely watching them while I finished my purchase. At any rate, Michaela came over to me holding Eliana's hand, explaining that Eliana had hit her head because she and Christian had crashed into one another. Eliana was definitely upset, but she wasn't wailing, and she looked more offended than anything. Or sad that someone had caught her out on her boo-boo (she really hates to get any attention AT ALL when she is hurt). So I gave her a hug and asked her if she was okay, and she stopped crying and hung with me, and then not too long after that was laughing again and wanting to do some of the activities in another area of the Convention Center.
So, we stayed around for a while, and the kids swung at some more balls in an effort to rack up home runs, and then we wandered back over to the autograph area so I could try to get a decent picture of Josh Hamilton. I took a few pictures and then told them it was time to head home. We walked to the car, got in, and headed home. It was around 5:30.
Eliana fell asleep, which didn't surprise me at all, since it was so late in the day and she's still so young. I think if the others had pillows, they might have fallen asleep, too! It took forever to get home (yes, I did take one wrong turn...I never get home the same way when I'm coming from downtown) but when we did and I opened the van door, Eliana woke up and sleepily said,"Mama?" I ran to the door, dropped some things off, and came back out to get her. She was still tired, and she wanted to go back to sleep.
Here is where I should have been like ALARM BELL RINGING...WEIRD BEHAVIOR...WARNING...WARNING but instead I thought she was just super tired from the long afternoon and took her upstairs to get ready for bed. I got her jammies on, brushed her teeth, read a story, and turned out the light. I asked her again if she wanted to eat anything but she said no. I also asked if her head hurt, because in the back of my mind I was worried about her hitting her head.
The story had come out as we walked after the incident; I had asked the kids to try to tell me what happened as best they could, which I'm sure they did. My guess is things like that happen so fast, and they are hardly paying attention to their own feet, much less what other people around them are doing. From what I gathered, Christian and Eliana were running together, in the same direction. Someone turned toward the other, they crashed, and then Eliana fell backward. She landed on her bottom first, but then fell all the way back on her head.
So...deep down I knew that there was a chance that she was hurt more than it seemed. For some reason, I was trying not to pay too much attention to that feeling or thought.
After we had been lying down for about a half-hour, she said to me,"I'm hungry." I took her downstairs to get a bite to eat, and sat down in a chair to wait for the microwave to be ready (Mike was heating something up...it was a leftover night). I looked at her, and she still looked very sleepy; I put my hand on the back of her head to see if I could feel any bump at all. I asked if her head hurt, and I don't even remember if she answered, but about three seconds later I heard this gurgly sound and I jumped to my feet and held her facing me. She had such a sad, confused look on her face as she threw up. She was trying not to throw up, while Mike and I told her it was okay, to let it out. When it seemed like she was done I told Mike about her fall and he said we needed to get her to the emergency room right away. I took her upstairs to get cleaned up, showered her, changed my own clothes and put my hair in a ponytail, and drove off as soon as I could.
I filled out the form at the E.R. and was seen by a nurse not too, too long after my arrival. I had taken Michaela with me in order to keep Eliana awake in the car, which did not prove to be a problem. They were singing and laughing hysterically all the way to the hospital. At one point I said, loudly, because they were being so noisy,"Settle down!" because I seriously thought Eliana might make herself throw up just from her wild laughter. Anyway, Mike and Christian met us at the hospital, and waited long enough for me to move past the initial waiting room into the official E.R. waiting room. I waited there for a bit longer and was finally taken back to a room.
During all this time several people looked at her, checked her eyes, and listened to the story. I reported about how she fell asleep in the car, woke up again on her own once we were home, and then vomited several hours after the fall. I talked about how it was not unusual for her to fall asleep on the way home in the car in the early evening, but that it was unusual for her to admit to being sleepy once she woke up from such a nap. Normally, she would deny being tired and adamantly insist on staying up. The nurses were so very kind and reassuring. I needed that, because I was terrified.
They brought her some water, and gave her a popsicle (one of the rainbow striped ones, which she only ate the top stripe!) (I guess for her that is a major improvement. ha!) and she colored and worked in an activity book that they provided for us. She was very busy. The nurses and one doctor came in and out at first, each one checking her eyes, heart, ears, and listening to the story. Each one said her eyes were perfect and that she seemed like she was just fine. They wanted us to stay around to monitor her for a bit longer, and see if she threw up again (more than once in the initial four-to-six hour range is cause for alarm).
One of the activities in the book was a states-and-capitals game. The capitals were listed on the left and the states on the right, each state assigned its own letter of the alphabet. She has learned the states and their capitals in the Thursday class that she and Michaela are in, so we went through the ones they had listed (25 of the 50). She knew every single one (I say the capital and she says the state), except for Oklahoma City, Oklahoma, which is the one that trips her up every time. I laughed a bit to myself as we went through them, thinking,"I guess her memory is intact."
One of the nurses finally came back in and said we were being discharged with a list of things to watch out for, and if she threw up more than two more times, to bring her back. They said,"She's perfect, she's beautiful."
Oh, the relief. I had imagined all of the things that could have happened. Probably not even all, I am sure I don't even know all of what could have happened...but, the bottom line is, when we left for the hospital I was very afraid. I was praying that God would take away my fears, and that he would protect Eliana, especially since my strange and foolish hesitation to attend to her fall led to such a delay in getting her checked out. I was so angry at myself for not doing something, anything, before she threw up. For not taking the fall more seriously (maybe I would have if I had seen it happen...she seemed okay). I even recalled, as I was driving to the hospital, that there had been a First Aid center at the FanFest. I regretted not taking her there; what if they had detected something and sent me right away? All of these things were going through my head, with the thought that there might be something very, very wrong with our baby girl.
As I unbuckled her straps and took her out of her seat, asleep again (with an "okay" from the nurses), and carried her to her bed, I was grateful. So grateful.
The main reason I wanted to write this is to say if ever there is a doubt in your mind that there might be an injury, get it checked out. Why risk it? I have learned that lesson. My heart aches even though everything worked out just fine, because what if it hadn't and I could have done something sooner? The doctors and nurses who work in the E.R. can either look at your child and say,"Great job bringing her in...we'll take care of her right away!" or "Great job bringing her in...there is no emergency though, so breathe easy, and know that everything is fine." If there is a next time, I will respond sooner and with greater urgency.
And if you are a nurse or a doctor, particularly in the E.R., I want to say thank you, because I think your job is brutal. Working in that environment, in the day or in the middle of the night, surrounded by, often, very sick children (this was a children's hospital) and adults, going as fast as you can in order to meet so many needs...it's like being a mom, but on steroids and shoved into overdrive. Thank you, in particular to the nurses and doctor that attended us; these women were completely wonderful, so reassuring, and a real blessing to me when I was scared.
Head injuries, or possible ones, are not to be messed around with. I'll be more attentive next time; I just wanted to encourage others in this regard as well.
(And Eliana seems just fine; today she was back to her sassy, fussy, and funny self. Apparently her memory and her personality came through this ordeal unscathed)