Fat Tuesday Sounds About Right
Tuesday, May 8, 2012 at 6:45PM Today is the eleventh day that I have done the 30 Day Shred video. It feels like I've been doing it for about 20 days already. Writing that out puts things in perspective a bit for me...11 days is not a long time. I have to confess, I had very high expectations, what with all I heard about the video, the guarantees the instructor makes, and cutting out all of my soda calories. I was sure I would see, even if it were just a little one, a difference by now. As far as I can tell, I don't look different, my belly is just as jiggly as it was when I started (in fact, to me it looks fatter, more sticky-outy), and my legs aren't smaller (or less cellulitey). I do think my arms are stronger. When I flex, my bicep looks pretty good. But I'm not walking around with the big guns pulled out, so the changes aren't visibly noticable.
So, to be honest, I've been feeling a little discouraged. BUT! In a highly uncharacteristic twist of personality, I am NOT giving up! I'm going to continue to do the exercises. I also added walking daily. And doing all of this madness exercising earlier in the day, rather than after I get everyone in bed.
It's probably not very effective to exercise at a high intensity and then go to bed, don't you think?
I'm hoping the calorie-burn-effect will increase if I begin my day with a very vigorous walk (there is a crazy hill around the corner that I push the jogger up, and literally have to tell myself,"Okay, just a few more steps," until the next street over which I can go downhill), and then do the video sometime after lunch.
I don't mean to sound whiny, but today I really felt how much I had come to use food as a coping mechanism, whether it was soda, or a sweet, or...well, mainly soda and sweets. Ha! There were so many times that I just wanted to crack open the two-liter of Dr. Pepper in our fridge, and drink straight from the bottle! The burn! I miss it. And in the interest of full disclosure, I will say that I ordered pizza tonight (half off of my order at Papa John's...nice!) and thought I would have just a tiny bit of D.P. with my two slices of cheese. I poured a bit from the bottle that was open (Mike has had some of that, not me) and took the tiniest of sips, and it was totally flat. Then I didn't want any anymore. I thought,"It's not worth it."
But I really, really, really, really, really wanted to open the other bottle. For a second.
I also denied my desire for a chocolate chip cookie hanging around on my counter, the small bit of ice cream that was left after I served the kids their dessert, and the rest of the Pringles that I bought last week (there are like four left in the can).
I don't know what else I can do right now, except keep doing what I'm doing. I've cut out a lot of calories, I've eaten much less junk and dessert kind of foods, I've tried to eat less amount-wise, more frequently. There has been much less sugar in my diet in the last week and a half. I actually like to exercise; I think it makes me more cheerful and pleasant. So...I'll keep on truckin'.
Don't forget to check on Taylor...she had a good week!
Reader Comments (5)
Who are you and what have you done with my buddy Christina? I'm really hoping that your new-found insanity rubs off on me a little. But so far, no. Keep on truckin'...you will see a difference soon, and it will be awesome!
I've always had that issue with Pringles, too. I mean, c'mon. What harm could four, little chips do?
Turns out, a great deal when you do that every time there's an empty can of Pringles--which turned out to be surprisingly often at one time.
But it's one pound at a time. Hang in there.
I think 11 days is wonderful. It's better than 11 days of excuses or 11 days of discouragement. The changes are happening, you'll see them soon!
When I did this before it was through a program that had a hotline and they kept saying that your belly was the last to leave. You'll notice it in your arms and legs first. It's really hard not to give up when you don't see a difference in your midsection, but knowing it followed last helped me to keep going. They were right! Then I got pregnant and I have to start all over. wah.
Sometimes I crave that fizz of a fountain soda, and nothing else will do.
That's when I drink one.
;) I'm not exactly the poster child for willpower.